Broke Up (again)

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So, I broke up with my bf today (now ex). I told him I can't do it anymore, that I don't love him enough to keep the relationship for him. I feel sorry that I've hurted him, but it's for the best. The truth need to be told. And that's the truth. It's as simple as that.

I should put my feelings before his, and that's what I did. Relationships will only work if the feelings are mutual, and we don't have that. No matter how "boyfriend material" he is, if I don't feel good being in relationship with him, I won't. I feel bad for making him believe that I wanted the relationship as much as him. But, if I have another chance, I would still choose to be honest and break up.

- Hanin

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